junglegirl的地盤

                                                                               
殺魚是件不太開心的事情
平常我們下廚房，也總是拿著魚販處理好的魚或是超市買來的魚片
現在的家庭要碰到沒殺過的魚，機會是越來越少
                                                                               
                                                                               
不會殺魚
可是今天眼前卻擺了２０條老爸興高采烈從南方澳帶回來的魚鮮
把螃蟹丟到冰箱讓他慢性自殺
拿起刀　將魚兒們一條條的開腸剖肚
                                                                               
                                                                               
那種感覺很詭異
慢慢的劃開魚腹，擠出腥臭的肚腸
看見了隨著內臟而跑出來蠕動的寄生蟲們跟我說哈嘍
米黃色的牙籤最後捲曲著死去令我感到一陣反胃
然後在老爸提醒之下還得努力掏出位置很詭異的魚鰓
天曉得市場的魚販們是怎麼能這樣輕易的用一兩刀解決一條魚？
又怎麼能自在的撬出那一個又一個卡死的魚鰓？
                                                                                                                                                
                                                                               
我覺得自己很像是奪魂鉅或是針孔旅社的殺人魔
慢慢的凌遲著木板上的魚兒
掏空他們的內在　
變的扁平的魚腹好像消失了些什麼
                                                                               
                                                                               
好不容易處理完畢　把魚兒們強冷凍
用清潔劑偏執的徹底把所有物品刷洗乾淨
刀具　鉆板　盤子　鍋子　
                                                                               
                                                                               
結束　用肥皂徹底的洗淨腥味
                                                                               
我覺得我好像也消失了些什麼